happy Chinese new year ...

I really dun like chinese new year due to the fact that i dont have any family to visit ... Im too big and old to take ang bao from relative and elders ... i must really succeed ... i must make a warm and nice family ... i want to get out of this shatter family ... especially my dad ... i really cant stand him ...

I just cant seem to communicate with people around me ... i kind of feel that im out of this world ... i cant seem to get or be with a nice girl ... im still thinking of the past ... zzz something i just cant really let go ... well ... actually ... i just want to get to know more about you ... hope that your door will open and not shut .... hope that you will give me a chance to prove myself ...

another me ... dun feel like get into a r/s or even close to r/s before i get out of a pile of mess from my D ... time for me to rest a while and maybe i will go watch a movie later or just go to a restaurant to read my books ... or do assignment ... no mood to stay at "home"