Hmm... today i got a mix feeling ... waking up in noon ... heard my lousy dad voice ... ya first thing as you guys know is ask for money as i have say in previous post ...

He ask me go die ... ask me get out of the house ... well as usual ... me as myself stay calm and dun get a heated argument with a crazy person ... stay cool and stable ... after awhile when he cool down ... i just leave the house and went for my dinner ... and also treat myself to a nice movie ...

i went to watch 300 ... sparta ... Spartarian law -- No Retreat!!! No Surrender!!! DIE FOR GLORY!!!

As i ponder ... after getting a shout from your dad ... a normal person reaction will be shout back and also feel lousy , bad day ....

then for me ... after going through so many thing ... i learn to listen and forget it ... but sometime is hard also ... as i will keep on thinking and thinking ... and i will fall into the self blaming cycle and my face will turn black ....

Happiness and the state of mind is created by ourself ... you can be still happy even when ppl insult you ... as long as you keep ur mind and brain in a positive state ... be positive ... no points thinking about it ... as nothing will change ....

oh ya im looking for a cheap room ... budget btw 100 - 150 ... if you guys have lobang ... give me a call .... thank you = )

no love life for me ... dun wanna and hope for something that will bother me even more ... have to get out of my family mess first ... yeah i yearn to have a partner ... i mean a girl to love ... but ... also when i want to have something ... i always acted very fast ...

just finish the chinese novel ... what is mine will always be mine ... no point trying too hard ...