Christmas eve thoughts

820 am 24/12 fresh sunday morning listening to "Good-bye Days" by yui.

After watching a movie " taiyou no Uta" タイヨウのうた , i went for a jog. Jogging around the estate of rochester park while im thinking and reflecting of some stuff. Thinking of what I have acheive and also what had happen to me in this year.

I happen to view dill testimony just now. So happen i saw a girl call Ida and so happen i go read her blog. In her blog is all about how sad she is from knowing that she has asthmas again ... and she is suffering from it. When i read through it, i decide to pop her a mail. I just want to tell her " Just to be able to live and stay alive is such a lovely thing".

Recently i watch quite afew of jap drama. The drama that really touch my heart and encourage me the most is 1 litre of tears - base on true story. It really get back my fighting spirit after seeing how this little girl aya fighting so hard for her illness. Even when she knew that she is going to die , she still try very best to want to do something and be useful and be positive in her life. If she can do it, I dun see why as a healthy guy like me i cant do it . All i need is the fighting spirit.

After watching so many jap drama, i really admire their fighting spirit for their dream. They dare to dream and they will keep trying to reach their dream. The fighting spirits is what alot of teenagers lack of nowadays. In singapore , we are not allow to fail. If we cant make it the first time, most likely the society will condem you. If you never go to NUS or NTU or even SMU, people will think that you are useless or even stupid. If your dream is be a fashion designer, most likely you will face alot of problems. So so so ... what did you do about it ? the key words is DO ... if you just let it go without a fight, you will never get or even close to your dream.

Come on guys ... find your fighting spirits... Give your best to reach your goal... when you fall down just stand up again ... every effort that you put in is a small steps that bring you closer to your goals ... JUST DO IT...

To the people that care for me ... im okay now ... Thanks for your concern ... = )

Nobody know how i feel ...

I really want to get out of singapore. I really dun want to be link to him . Im so restricted. Nobody will know how i feel . Nobody can help me too. Only God can help me. 15 more months ... When i see people without perfect body ... i feel im not the unfortunate ... i really feel that i lack of love ... i feel very lonely sometime ...

when you want people to love you ... you have to love other first ... when you love other... other wont differnately love you ... to have unconditional love is so great and wonderful ...

when i watch 1 litre of tear ... i really being encourage by the true story of this girl call aya ... she is such a fighter ... despite knowing that she will lost her everything slowly as the day pass ... she still keep on fighting ... keep on wanting to live ...

what did i do ?
I have a perfect body yet im here complaining ...
hey if you have problem ... family problem go solve it ... dun run away ...
keep on fighting ...
do something useful ...
dun rot your life away ...

even when nobody love you ... God still love you ... even when your parent dun love you ... no gf ... God will always be there for you ...

keep on fighting law

1 Litre of Tear

This drama is about a girl who was diagnosed with a disease called Spinocerebellar Degeneration when she was 15 years old, and was able to continue her life until her death at the age of 25 years old.

The plot is based on the true story of a Japanese girl named Kito Aya, who had the same disease. She kept writing in her diary to remember her experiences until she could no longer hold a pen. Aya simply wished to live until the end of her life, and the purpose of writing in the diary was to remind herself to not give up. She shed tears many times, at the same time encompassed by the rich love and support from her family, friends, and boyfriend. Her diary “1 Litre of Tears” was published after her death, because of its inspiring and courageous message of, “Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.” So far, over 18,000,000 copies of her diary have been sold.

The Review

This dorama features Sawajiri Erika, Nishikido Ryou, Narumi Riko, Yakushimaru Hiroko, Jinnai Takanori and Fujiki Naohito. Sawajiri Erika has powerfully brought out the character of Aya, and people who watch this dorama will feel compassion for her while she suffers from the illness. My tears flowed after almost every episode as I questioned myself, “What would I do if I were Aya?” This is a dorama where you can see a 15 year old young girl who was able to face her disease bravely, and tried her best to treasure the time she spent with her friends, family and boyfriend everyday she could.

To me, this was one of the best doramas of 2005, mainly because the reality of this story has enlightened me. I realized that my life is not that tough compared to those who are suffering from an incurable disease. “1 Litre of Tears” stood out for a reason: it is not because Aya was upset because of her disease, she was touched by the love and patience she received from her friends and family. I was amazed by the braveness with which she chose to live her life, as a strong girl who was only 15 years old, yet managed to face her cruel fate with a positive outlook, and tried her best to do whatever she could by herself.

For those dorama fans who loved “Beautiful Life” that starred Takuya Kimura & Tokiwa Takako, I’d bet you guys will appreciate this story too. I can feel the power of the love from her family and friends in this story, and encouraged me to be positive in my life even though there may be many difficulties and problems. I hope there will be somebody who is willing to translate the original diary by Kito Aya sold in Japan because she has a lot of meaningful words in her diary. This story contains both sadness and love, and I hope you guys will love this dorama as much as I did.

Who will ever know ?

Who will ever know that im living in a bombing zone? The bomb is building up as the day pass. I wonder when will it be explode. It so stressful to live in this kind of home. sometime i wish the bomb will just explode and gone for good. I just cant ... nobody can help people who are going through the stressful life. Everything need money. When the people dont have money, they will keep on thinking about it. Therefore there are alot of people in the mental hospital. God I pray that you will help my bomb ... help him ...

New skin

Aloha i have just change my blogskin ... pure white skin ... hope you guys love it. i have been busy with my school work and also my part time job.

oh ya just to promote my comics blog : http://sgcomicsrental.blogspot.com
and my co own blog: http://strictlytechno.blogspot.com/.

My co own blog is written by my friend Mr Daniel. He is a very interesting guy. How insteresting is he ?? Well Find out yourself by reading his blog. He like to go to hunt for interesting places in singapore such as the techno bridge, ghost hunting site and many more.


I will be writing more of my feeling in this blog. i will make a point to update here. i will also put up interesting topic here. So to come and visit me and drop me a note. = )


See ya

Full day

Yo today have a international buffet at sakura. wee i have alot of food today ... from appetitser to main course to desert ... ssoosososo full and nice ... keke ... oh well i have my number le ... hp no i mean ... but you guys still can call the same number ... i change to the singtel plan ... i have a new handphone ... yeah N6280 ... woot nice ... haha charging nw wo ... yeah ... good ... keke ... = )

oh well see ya guys ...

better day

hmm... today have nite class from 7 till 10 ... then after the class we went to have dinner/supper for prata ... everybody seem like waiting for one another ... i was quite piss off ... yeah ... so i just initiate by walking towards the bus stop ... hai ... yawn just dun like to waste time on such a thing ... even the guys cant decide what to do ... yawn

well ... no girls for me nw ... have to concentrate on my study and job ... :P to have multiple incomes... Friends are better ... i just like to make more friends ... hehe ...

Tml will be a better day ... yeah

vivocity

To went out with my mei mei aka lydia to vivocity ... hehe ... we went to watch world trade center and have lunch at carl junoir ... the movie is abit of disappointment ... but i love the mushroom burger by carl junoir ... hehe ... love it ... weee....

vivocity is a spacious shopping... i like the open space concept ... well my mei brought a watch from a shop call lan smthing ... i saw a watch there ... very nice ... tempted to buy ... argh ... hint hint .... poki poki is a interesting girl ... haha scare me out of my life ...

Guy cannot be a girl best friend mah ??
what do you guys think ??

Pray for amanda Plsssssss

I really hope that Dear Amanda will get promoted... Hey all the best ... = )

Hmm... mind mapping is a good technique to study for test ... well today i didnt do well for my test ... why it is all because of me lor ... never study enough ... keke =p

I will GIVE MY BEST SHOT in next paper ...

you never knw what will happen the next moment ... you never predict what is going to happen ...

argh

ARgh .... dunno what to do ... well hope everything go smoothly ... hehe i have been bless with plenty of work ... freelance work ... doing part time nw with 3 depts in AKLTG . well i learn alot of stuff during the work ... i got to meet different kind of people ... some of them are very very weird... extremely wierd ... well nvm is a very good experience ... hehe ...

Life has been a blessing so far ... at least im having a good problem/ headache ... hope thingy will go even smoothly for me ... = )
Oh ya i lock myself out of my room yesterday ... im so piss at myself ... stupid sia ... took the wrong bunch of keys ... argh so i have to pay a price for that .. guess what ... it cost me $35 ... ZZzzZzzz

kay lar ... see ya ...
Will update my blog de ... heeheee

A lepord will not change it spot

pls pray for my dad ... sigh ...

sekai no chuushin

To lose something is to gain something ... sob sob

long lasting race

"In a life when you keep running past others, there are only a few times when your heart become one with another's... If that's the case... I'm happy to be able to see a face like this... I'm happy to be able to jump for joy like this..."

pray that you will recover from flu and fever soon ... hope that you get well soon ... brownie Gambatei ...

no matter how painful is the race ... i will still run it and hope that i will be able to recieve my brownie in the finishing line ...

bokuwa baka des

a poem

Summer day...
Winter night ...
After a hundred years ...
I will come back to you ...

My Boss My Hero

My Boss My Hero - Must watch J drama ... this yr very hot drama ... got cool guy and kawaii girl ..
The story is very interesting ... It show on japan every Sat now ...

The storyline is revolve around this 27 year old guy (maki) who is going to take over his dad business. Guess what ?? The business is to be a mafia boss ... whaha ... So why did he need to go to school ?? because he is a BAKA ... cos he is stupid ... and so he enrol into a sch to study ...

Yeah the story begin ...

you guys can go bt-china website download it ...

MUST WATCH YO 5 stars rating ... = )

Separate isn't a bad thing

Separation for a period of time isn't a bad thing at all ... people need to grow up... It will make u realise what are the things that you really looking for ... i always believe if the person is mean to be urs the person will be urs no matter what ... Being force into certian thing wont have great future for both party...

Recently i just realise a thing again ... a reminder to me also ... God's plan take time ... He know the best for His children ... when i plan for something i always wanna it to go according to my plan ... I dun really have the patient to wait for the planning ... yeah i have to be patient ....

Im very happy for you ... serious ... i love your new hair cut ... you look very cute ... well too bad i still cant really say it to you in msn ... i know that my words are hurtful sometime ... im sorry for it ... well do slp well have an early slp ... if you have any problem or you need a pair of ears ... I will always be there for you ... actually my hp is useless without you ... kind of like your private line you noe ... im exhilrated when i recieve your msg ....

Hope that you stay happy always = )

Seeya

Happy birthday TO ME

Happy birthday to me ... keke today im at home ... lazing around waiting for ppl to call me out ... huhu ... well i dun think will have lar ... going to yinC later ... hope to have some fun ... well im very happy to recieve somebody msg ... i thought she will forget my bday ... i really thought so ... keke very happy now ... even when im no program today ... it really seem that i still very much affect by her ...

i shall not think too much about it ... as lai re fang chang ... God will give me a direction ... and if we are meant to be den we will be ...

this yr never recieve any present yet ... abit disappointed ... hope to receieve smthing from some ppl ... haha ... hint hint ... k i go be pig for 1 hour.... see ya

im Shock

Hmm... im just shock by what you did ... well im happy about it too ... hmmm... what can i say ..?? better dun say anything ...

HAppy memo - always will be happy memo ... things that are nt so pleasent just let it be ... future is full of happiness ... look forward to future ... time flew pass very fast when we are immerse with something ... just as time crawl slowly when we r aimlessly wonder ard ...

Feeling is a double edge emotion ... what is a right feeling ? what is a wrong feeling ? when u like something will there be a reason behind it ?? i dunno ... maybe yes maybe no ... but why no ??

hey Goal and dream ... we need to have Dream and Goal ... goal is a small step towards dream ... without dream u will aimlessly living in this earth ...

For those who are studying for their exam ... i wish you guys well ... esp you ... yup you ... hey do get out have some rest/fun and recharge urself so to give ur best shot for you promo ... wish you all the best ...

BLOCK

block block ... well didnt wanna say it but ... argh cannot stand it ... block me in from blog den block me msn zzzz.... argh nvm lar ... must well block me all over ... zzzz

sick sick tired tired ... all turn out bad bad ... wao ... so fan ... not really actually ... nth to do mah ?? me maybe ... nt really too ... am i sick ... maybe ... zzzz..

today slept for freaking 12 hours ... can u believe it ... i cant too ... hmm... when a person become lazy ... the person will rot rot rot ... i dun want to rot my life away ... ARGH no point ranting over here ...

hey ur teacher will find ur essay de ... dun worry ... ZZzZzzzZZzz ...

dun feel like toking too ... byeE

EEeeeEEe

Argh nobody wanna watch click with me sob sob T T ...
WHY WHY ...??

IM SO BORED ... sian no job no money ... im too fussy also ... zzzz ... no money no honey no nth .... argh ... Engine cannot start ... im very lazy nowaday ... legs still havent recover ... stupid foot rot ... argh .. should i go see a doctor?? army stuff havent settle ... pink IC ... i sick of going back to camp leh ... T T ... sian i wanna find tution jobs ... i dun wanna be lazy .... argh i wanna my life back ... faster oct cos i wanna study ... how i wish i dun need to find job and just study ... but cannot ... cos i will have to eat grass ... argh ..............................

SOB SOB .... my little brain thinking of some romantic thingy again ... how i wish u still be with me ... den i can study with u ... haha im more likely to read books bah... and so hard to FIND Ppl to watch movie with me argh T T ... well i guess is hard bah ...

hey hey lawrence dun be desperate lar ... you have to work hard in getting near and close to your dream ... and well u have to kick ur bad habit too ... like argh cannot say ...

erm... life have been stagnant ... hmm... looking for job ... do some part time job in seminar ... laze ard LAZE ARD ... arrgh ... having a day a meal ... slping time harewire .. zzzzz ... WHAT ??

JIa you bah !!!

New skin for ages ...

HEy hey i Design a new skin myself hehe hope u guys love it ... yeah it has been ages since i change the skin ... why because i dun like to use other ppl skin whahaa...

yeah wanna thank God for giving me this opportunity to study in Uni ... oh the best thing is only 1 yr not 1 1/2 yr ... woot nice save money and save time ... i love it ... pray that i will have a nice part time job soon ...

all the best in your promo - amanda - jia you jia you ... dun be too stress ... if u too stress just write to me ... email ... ya ...

you argh ... hope u do well in this sem ... u also jia you - lydia

whaha as u ... hmm ... socks hahaaaa study smart ... and ya hope u get well soon i mean ur nasty acnes

keke my blog only 3 ppl view yeah !!! u guys should be honoured haha lala ....
next time i will be put in more stuff woot hehe
see ya byebye

May all of you have a good week ahead and take care

Hey stay happy

Hmm... just came back after work ... wow is 1.30am in the morning ... well hope you will be okay and fine ... To me you are still a nice gal ... you are always a nice gal ... stay happy and pray to God for strength and light ...

see ya ard ...

Oh ya hope i can find a perm temp job soon ... hey lydia ... zzz never tok to me this few days haha ... i wonder dill you here see see mah ... woot ... and Socks haha hihi ... and lastly you ... hope u have a great week and week after ... bye ... my heart still feel the same as before ... just that i dunno what to say/do when i see you ... all the best ...

To you

Stay happy and believe in yourself ... Believe in yourself that you can do well in your studies and anything that you are doing ... Pray to God for strength and guidence ... Nice green spec that you r wearing ... ya it suit you ... hope you do well in your A lvl. Be happy always and stay positive ...

see ya ard ... hope so ...
OOO

Hamster and piggy

i miss piggy .... rolling at the mud and i have to use spray to clean up his dirt ... but well he is no longer there zzzz ...

Hamster i will just keep you here ... here in my heart in this little corner little space ... sigh what gone is gone ... water being pour out cannot be retrieve ... that is life ...

I miss alot of thing ... miss the peeping sound of my phone ... well i shall not think soo much ... shall go to slp now and follow my plan ... and pray that God will guide me through ...

Yeah

Yeah i got my JC thingy started ... hehe and also done up my timetable ... well just hope that i will follow what i have plan ... is a daily life plan ... hehe

There you go ... a nice letter that i found today when i clean up my room ...

Slow Dance - by Small gal

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down
Dont dance so fast
Time is short
The music wont last

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short
The music wont last

Ever told your child
We'll do it tomorrow
And in your haste
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch
Let a good Friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say, "hi"
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short
The music wont last

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopend gift ...
Thrown away
Life is not a race
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over

Hmm... so do slow down the tempo of your life to take a look at your surrounding ... is a nice poem esp for sg ...

Time to get my engine on

Im currently waiting for to go Uni ... UOW-SIM. im doing a part time job now as a admin personal at adam khoo co ... and still looking for more jobs out there ...

Im planning for this upcoming junoir camp ... so i hope will be a blessing to alot ppl ... and i really have to get it going ... and i also have to start planning what i have to finish this mth ... I thin i have a long list haha ...

Things To Do -
1. Plan the JC camp (date due end of nov)
2. Find a temp job
3. Finish the YPDL
4. Settle my Uni thing
5. Read Bible
6. Plan my timetable
7. Review my personal Goal
8. Meet up with friend
9.Give a kick to myself
10.EXERCISE

Blah Blah alot of things to do yet im like so free ... how i wish i have some personal touch from a sepcial gal ... well look it positively i save quite alot of money haha ... hmm well will wroking toward that ... I really hope that i can find a girl that love me very much and commited in me and of cos love God too

Im still think of you zzzz..... as if you are reading it ... just hope i will get to talk to u again ...

koko

haha Now my nick name become koko ....u can call me koko crunch or nata de koko hehe ....

hmm... why you wanna ban me ... ?? zzzz sigh still think of her again ... when can i shake over this shadow ..... i guess i have to get my life straight and back ... when will my true .... come ... zzzz well nvm i shall do what im best at ... earn money haha ...

yeah to go after my dream is the best .... jia you lawrence ... may God guide you and bless you ...

Sigh

Seem like im toking to myself... nobody reading what i wrote ... ZZzzZZZzZzz... life in a stale ... i still remember ... all the things... Fei come back pls ... long time nv see u ... why .. love sucks ... TT yawn

Im in a crossroad

Hmm... im in a crossroad of my life ... nowadays im quite busy playing online game... well i wanna focus on one thing at a time... i make quite alot of new friends from all over the world... quite a number of them from USA and Canada ...

Well i have to start focus on God ... yup ... been kind of away from Him recently ... well i still think about you ... just cant forget it ... well i have to just let God handle it... when i see you i really have no idea what to say ... it really feel weird and bad ... i hope that as time by ... we will be back to normal again ... laughing and playing ...

may all the sorrow be wash away ...
let us invite the new yr and days ...
hope the best for you...

dear pal Dill ... if you happen to visit my blog... i just wanna say ... stay healthy and enjoy ur stay in Aus ... have fun and study smart ... will certainly miss you ... hmm.. hope to see you soon ...

lydia ... Dun be too stress on your project ... give urself some break ... and do take care of your health ... all the best in your project and coming exam ...

and as for you ... i really hope u have a happy life ... and all the best for your coming exam ...

AFK for a Mth

hehe im back ... argh ... been busy playing online game water margin ... hehe and also having exercise too ... keke =p

recently lotsa thingy happen ... have to adjust my mood and feeling ...
Things do get better ... and of cos thing to change sudd ... keke dats is life ...
woot ...

yo mei have a nice trip to BK yo ... remember to get me a nice gift hohoho...

btw im going to ORD le ... im so so so happy ... and hopefully will have the finacial to study my Uni ... hehe ...

well i will also post some drawing up here soon ... all the best guys ... love you guys ...

-- Devil --

looking back

Memory~~memory~~

foolishness

lover to enemy
do you think i really cant live without you ??
turn into a hidden self ...
fine ... i wont even bother le...
even when i see you in real person ...
whether you sick or unhappy ...
you are just another person ...
Argh!!
i will never understand ...
understand why you give me a cold shoulder
why you beocme another person totally
your feeling for me last time is fake??
are you not mature enough ??
Argh!!
am i the one to blame??
should i even bother ??
being nice is wrong mah??
lover to enemy
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i create this blog is just for you ...
but i guess dun need le ...
from now on it is just me and God
the blog will be for God and for me
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hey sg all the best in your appeal ...
mei jia you in your study ...
hope you get well soon and get your scholarship ...

inspiration ...

yeah i got a target to achieve le ... planning is in the process ... thinking of doing certain thingy ...
tonight yinC learn new thing again ... yeah ... im so recharge now ... this few days has been thinking about what to do after ns ... i have to go register le U... yeah... oh ya im quite shock that quite alot of the SIA girls are not very tall ... keke im so happy ... yawn

thinking of you ... 19 is such a special number ... wind blow as season change ... whenever i see you ... i just go through you ... you are such a special one ... WHO R U ??

Out of the equation

Yeah my dad has come back home quite a few days ago ... Thanks God that he is okay ...

Happy to see you back to a happy chubby gal ... = p

Been travelling to Changi airport to do my duty ... get to protect my country ... it is quite an experince ... get to see the transit area ... T2 is quite big yo ... it is just like a mini shopping center ... very cool inside ...

today went to town to meet my friend for a walk cum dinner ... have a good time together ... i just change back to my quite self ... listen to them talking ... enjoying ... the chatting part ... have a dinner at cafe cartel at cine ... the service abit sucks!! but the food is nice ... i brought an album ... love psychedelico - the greatest hit ... very nice ... hehe

Art Friend in Taka - it is a cool place ... you can get everything that you need. From the paint to brushes to pencil to tools ... alot of cool things inside ... it will be my next fun shop in town ... will get my hand dirty with these new toys that im getting soon ... hehe

i have been wasting my time ... is time to get down to do some dirty work and also to upgrade myself... learn somthing new ... something that worth the value ... yup

all the best to myself ...

Reflection

pray that my dad operation will be successful... he will have a good rest in the hospital ...
mei mei you get will soon and be happy always ...
hope that you will not be so stressful in your study, Believe in yourself ya ... brownie

To do list...
- planning games for youth camp
- planning for JC ...
- To get well from foot rot
- To learn guitar
- To service my camera
- To wash my clothing
- To visit my dad

Hmm.. dont think too much about getting a partner ... dunt wanna know girls ... yup .. should back to my last time self ... know more guys ... play games ... sport ... and the most important thing to do now is to upgrade myself ... yup yup

I dunnoe why if i want to know a girl ... people will always think is because i like the girl... sad ... that is not the case ... i just want to know more friend ... and ya ... being quite ... i have to go back to my quite self ... just like long long time ago ... = )

Upgrade prog...
- photoshop
- reading books
- guitar

friday

Today is such a hectic day esp the noon ... everybody are waiting for one answer ... in the end ... we do not have the answer ... sigh!! ... evening i cycle to uncle bern house for yinC... debunking the DVC ... yeah ... gain quite alot of knowledge ... and have a nice time fellowship and celebrating eugiena DoB ... keke it was so funny that she discovered it when QL was lighting the candle in the kitchen ... hehe

well we just seem to click already ... why i dunno ... sigh!! hope that God will make a way ...

dunnoe what to write

My work place sucks... Boss cannot make it ... not decisive enough ... yawn .... i guess we are just arch enemy bah .... cant seem to have the click now ... yawn... ya ya im nagging in the blog now ... i should just use my time wisely and do things that are meaningful ... yup ... i got foot rot sia ... sian ... always care for ppl ... but who care for me ?? i wonder ... Sigh!! i guess i will be a loner again ... as usual ... should do things by myself and enjoy being with myself haha....

me, my , mine ...
God is the best ... love You

girls are weird

IF you know how to control their mood ...
you will lead a happy life ...
IF you know when to do the correct thing and not to do the wrong thing ...
you will be very blissful...
IF you can read their mind... you will be very peaceful...

Can you ?? i cant ... that why im very misserable dealing with gals ...

Mood swing ...
Everything change ...
im shock ...
Dunno how to react ...
so hard to be a nice friend ...
did i over do it ...
i dunno ...

single and loving it

It is so cool to be single ... haha ... yeah ... looking forward to tml ... will bring my BWP out to explore interesting stuff... im also planning to fix my camera ... it having a greenish virus ... nothing much happening being a nsf .... ya ... cannot tell you guys what i have been doing in camp... well what i can say is eat slp and wait to book out haha ...

Love you more than tommorrow, less than yeterday ...
Winning by Losing ...

To whoever who view my blog ... have a happy long weekend ... ya
=)

my bluey wild piggy

the answer is out ... for you guys out there wondering who is my bluey wild piggy ... She is none other than my bicycle ... woo ... is a mountain bike yo ... in all Blue ... aka BWP ... haha ...

all along i thought im good at understand girl's mentally and their needs ... but i am wrong ... totally wrong ... I have much more to learn ... how to treat a lady ... is an art ... really ... i have been reading a book from my church ... a letter for phil ... yup... is about how to treat your wife ... well it also apply to how you treat your friends men / ladies ...

Girls are weird... they want to be love forever ... they wont be sick of you ... for the little thing you do to make their life great ... they will look out for the little things that you have done for them ...

Hai ... sometime i just regrete how i have treated you ... i thought i have been very good to you ... but i know i just as guilty ... i quite bad to you ... as i keep irritate you ... make you feel guity ... im just selfish bah ... i really hope that we can still be friend... i dunno when will you start to accept me again ... i guess you need time bah ... welll ... i will always open my heart and my door to you ...

i guess sometime i just tried too hard... expect something in return if i do something ... i really hope that to those people i have offended ... you guys will forgive and forget about it ... really hope that we still can be friends... i dun wish to lose such a great friend ... hope you stay happy always ... waiting for you to response ... -- wei ling

Sigh i got foot Rot ... ya ... pls pray for me that i my leg will recover soon ...

really want to praise God for the thing He has done for me ...
Our body is temple of God ... really hope that my friends wont destory thier body by drinking alcohol , smoking , gambling , pornograhpy ...

With God in us ... anything is possible ... yup ... i hope i can kick my habbit too .... yup ... pls pray for me ...

Love you more tommorrow than yesterday ...

wild piggy

ooo oh ... haha i finally have my little wild piggy ... so shoik sia ... will love her de ... keke ... life has been good ... God has been wonderful for me ... i just hope that you guys out there will be happy and enjoy the days that you have on this earth ...

i just want you to know ... i still care for you ....

i just want to tell you ... hey take care hor ... take medicine and rest early ...

i just want to tell you take care of your health ...

i just want to say sorry to you ...

the you meant for 4 people ...

Sometime i really think im very irritating ... i think is because im very bored ... my thinking is so selfish ... hey so if i irritate you pls tell me ... i dont really noe de... i dun like ppl to dun reply my msg ... ya ...

Am i willing to train where myself away from selfishness toward the point where i honestly care how the person feels?

i really feel like chatting with you ... but im afriad ... im waiting for you ... to say something to me ... really glad that you are happy ...

=) lovE

why do people Drink>>?? izzit a Need?

Why do people drink ?? why why ?? izzit neccessary ?? cant they drink water ?? i mean there are alot of drink without alcohol ... i dun even need to say the bad point about the taking alcohol ... ya people will tell me ... abit of alcohol is good for health ... ya ... most of our food already have alcohol which is cook in it le ... so do we still need it ?? i dun think so ...

people drink alcohol to feel high ... to be sobber .... to ya destroy the body ... why why why ... you guys know the hangover thingy ... and still do it ... is human being so so so sinful ... im no better also ... im just as guilty ... since we know the consequences le ... and we still do it ... Hai~~

when will human being start to learn ...
when when ??

ya im very thankful that i have a place ... most likely .... ya ... in SIM-OUW .... com Sci ... im still deciding on which course i will give it a shot ... really Thank you Lord ...

Friends

Friend is so great ... but once you cross the boundary ... everything will go all wrong ... how many first couple will stay on and eventually become husband and wife?? well i guess only a few bah... friend is one of the best thing in human relationship ... you can develop alot of qualities by treating your friends...

sometime people will just rush into a relationship when they just ended one ... why ... i guess because as a human being ... we all needs/want to be love ... we just tend to let the feeling take control of everything ... but are we ready for it ?

Im very fortunate that im a christian ... i have God's love ... so i dont feel very lonely ... as a single child ... sometime i felt the emptiness in me ... but ... God is always there for me ... consoling me ... i also want to be love by friends, by my parents and of course the people which im close with ... i also long to have a nice, understanding and caring girlfriend and eventually become my wife ...

I keep on constantly telling myself ... this kind of things have to be patient ... dun rush into things ... ya really dun rush ... learn to crawl first ... take a step at a time ... = )

My day have been very great ... ya panDa is a cool friend.... =) so great to know you ... hope you get well soon ... Been playing guitar recently ... hope that i will be good enough to play in church to praise God ... yeah!!

What If

'If I have a million dollars,
I would buy a house.
Do I have a million?
No.That's why I don't have a house.
If I have wings, I can fly.
Do I have wings?
No.So I can never fly.
If all the waters are drawn out of Pacific Ocean,
It still can't put off the flame of love between us.
Can all the waters of Pacific Ocean be drawn finished?
No.That's why I don't love u.

What a beautiful paragraph .... from a romantic book ...

just hope that everybody stay healthy and happy always...
really hope that all my friend will accept God one day ...

Volcano Erupted

It has been a year... our friendship seem so fake ... well one year later ... now our friendship totally gone ... i tell you finished...

Use to be so sweet... everything that i say seem so sweet and beautiful ... when i give advice and constructive comments ... it seem so plesant and nice ... why why why ... i still dun understand why thing changes when a couple break ... it seem so fake ... where is the friendship ... now i seem to be a jerk/nasty person to you ... I seem like always disturbing you and irritate you ... i really dun understand ...

Totally a waste of time to care for you to get scolded and to see your black face... so wrong to know you in the first place ... should have listen to you ... i felt like im a fool ... still dream of you ... oh ya im not even mention by you in your ... you noe where ... im just a secrete person ... im a bad guy ... trying so hard to be nice to you ... yet ...

everything has an ending ... today will be our ending ... not even friend because i guess i dont deserve to be your friend ... i dont ... i know without me you will feel better ... What i have done for you become ashes ... is just a dream ... an illusion ...

i wont avoid you i guess ... but i wont talk to you ... wont even think and care about you ...
lastly i wanna wish you all the best ...
in your study
in your family
in your relationship
in your friendship
in yourself

our friendship dead

My sweet Room

Finally finish the first part of my renovation in my room ... i wanna get more stuff in my little store room ... which is my room too ... woo ... i just fix in a few stuff... hehe i rearrange my little room ... hehe throw away alot of stuff ... brought mirror - can see my full size yo ... laundry bag - finally i decide to do the washing ... cos my dad always wash till a bad condition ... so is time for me to get my hands wet ... hoho ... how i wish i have a girl to help me wash hehe ... Get the hint mah ?? oh ya i also purchase the pillar to hang my shirt hehe ...

wait for a fews yr more bah ... den i shall move into a bigger room and i will invite you guys to come over to play haha ... see ya mucks ...

holiday

yeah is a God's day .. went to church in the morning ... i really hope that all my friends and my family will get save ... that is my greatest wishes... then afternoon went to ikea to buy mirror, lundry bag and KAPPE... woo so fun ... i met my xiao mei ... woo den we go bugis ... she brought a top sia and buy strawberry strudder... keke

dream of you again ... so sweet yet so ...
wei you very busy sia... cant seem to have a tea/coffee with you ... yawn
evol ay God

Why Do We Need Salvation

We are sinners and we have sinned before a Holy God. No one is perfect.
None has lived up to God's perfect standard.

"For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;" (Romans 3:23)
"As it is written. There is none righteous, no, not one;" (Romans 3:10)

What is SIN ??

"And he (Jesus) said, That which cometh out of the man, that defileth the man. For from within, out of the heart of men, procceed evil thoughts, adulteries, fornications, murders, Thefts, covetousness, wickedness, decit, lasciviousness, an evil eye, blasphemy, pride, foolishness: All these evil things come from within, and defile the man." (Mark7:20-23)

As sinners, we owe a penalty. The punishment for sin is not only physical death but also in the lake of fire which is the second death. If we pay what we owe as sinners, we must spend an eternity in the lake of fire.

"And death and hell were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death." (Revelation 20:14)
"But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone : which is the second death." (Revelation 21:8)

The Bible is a book of love and hope. Christ has already paid our sin debt and it is a fact.

"But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Chirst died for us." (Romans 5:8)

Christ was not a sinner and Bible teaches that God took all our sins and place them on Him. Whilst Christ was bearing all of our sin in His own body, God punished Him in our place to pay the debt we owe. This is not something God promised to do. It is something He has already done. Salvation is a gift from God.

"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." (John 3:16)
"For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him."(2 Corinthians 5:21)

Salvation is a person who is Christ

"Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life, no man cometh unto the Father, but by me."(John 14:6)

Salvation is not in a church, denomination, ritual or anything else.

"Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved."(Acts 4:12)

Salvation is not the result of man's good works but Christ's work on the cross.

"For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast."(Ephesians 2:8-9)

The Bible tells us very clearly how to receive this salvation.

"That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."(Romans 10:9-10)

We must acceptby faith what Christ did for us. Those who believe will have everlasting life whilst those who do not believe will not see life. To believe on Christ means that we accept the fact that we are sinners, that as sinners we owe the sin penalty, and that Christ died on the cross to pay the debt we owe. But it means going one step further. It means that we will completely trust Christ to get us to Heaven, that we will put the matter of our salvation in His hands and depend on Him for everlasting life.

"He that beliebeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God abideth on him."(John 3:36)

What are we to do about our sins?

"if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all righteousness."(1 John 1:9)

What is God's promise?

"For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved."(Romans 10:13)

When we recieve Christ as Savoir, we have everlasting life with a promise of no future condemnation.

"Verily, verily, i say unto you, He that hearth my word, and believeth on him that sent me, hath everlasting life, and shall not come into condemnation; but is passed from death unto life."(John 5:24)

WILL YOU RECEIVE JESUS CHRIST AS YOUR LORD AND SAVIOR TODAY??

contact me at 97647177 ... i wll pray with you.

KenTing

Ken ting is a very beautiful place... actually is a beach lor ... but very happening ... one long strech lor ... alot of colorful shop and cafe... the beach itself also very power ... the beach wear all very trendy ... the bikini very faniciful and lotsa pattern ... i almost want to buy for somebody lor ... yawn... wao ... i just have the urge to buy it lor hehe... so fun fun ... It is far far more happening than our sentosa and ECP...

Ken ting filled with alot alot of babe and hunk ... they really look like jap lor ... wao ... hehe i like the atmosphere there ... hehe.... the everything there also very nice ... small motobike ... dat cool man ... their beach activities is like alot lor ... kind of like mini water theme park ....

wee... too many things to say about ken ting le ... the food there seem to be very nice too ... if you guys ever been to taiwan .. Do check out Ken ting hehe... photo will up soon ...

Today is a God's day... yeah!! how i wish i was in church .... i miss church ... lalalala .. soo happy today ... tml will be happier... see you guys ....

Wooo

Hey today abit disappointed lar ... hehe i shall say again here... wao just now suppose to go kenting for night out ... ya we did went there ... so fun lor .... but too many people le ... so have to come back camp ... the worst thing is got accident lor when we are coming back... the car belong to a gangster yo ... ya ... but nothing happen lar ... on the way there see alot of pretty babe ... and nice cool car and bike lor ... hehe ....

Wee... overall today okay lar... morning went to outfield sun tanned ... hehe my face become red red le ... i took some nice picture there... will post it soon ... so keep a lookout yo!!!....

Why should i make you happy... nvm lar ... i think through le... dun waste my time also ... dun apreciate me is none of my business... hehe i rather talk to people who appreciate me ... at least take me as a friend ... not like somebody ... nvm lar ...

wee... i shall not bother about you le... yeah!! ... i just mind my own business ...

argh where is my friend

sian where is all my friend ... argh!!!
so so so so sian ... do i really have to finish all my books ??
ARGH!!!! i hope somebody hear me ... yawn .... im waiting for you ... you know mah ?? do you know ?? argh!!

im totally insane now ... crazy now ...
btw i go cut BOTAK ... hehe (you believe me mah?)
i think i really bored now ... been thinking alot of stuff that is really of no use ...
i really think that im a fool lor ...

nvm lar .... is better to be a fool ... ahaha

a pretty bored noon

just wake up after doing the 12 to 8 am duty... my head full of thoughts ... thoughts that keep on bothering me ... sometime i just feel like pour out everything... but i have to watch my words ... human being are selfish... only think of themselve ... ya ... is so hard to love your enemy... we always want to be the winner ... argh ... den who will be the loser ??

sometime i have to look at myself and say hey ... dun decide your life ... let God do the job... what have you achieve on yourself ?? if not for God i will be gone long ago... sigh!! sometime i just like to fantasis the good thing ... the thing that will come out beautiful... but when i try to acheive it ... it will always backfire... i really like to ask why why why ?? i guess nobody can answer me ...

life is always up and down ...
Good time dun last long ...
really hope that tough time will double good time ...

how much you will love a person depend on how much the person love you...
feeling is decitful... love somebody need patient ... yesh Patient... you need to be his/her side no matter what happen... love is kind ... love dunt bring hatred to the guy/gal you like even if he/she do somthing terrible to you... love is peace... love is many more ...

forget ... memories ... patient ... kind ... peace ... love ...
just as i mention ...
i still evol ay

love is no reason

love someone need no reason...
The reason will find you once you in the relationship...

Been pondering about the above statement after i read finish the chinese novel... it really remind me of some personal thing... I still dunno what the ending ... haha ... guess is really for the reader to decide bah ...

he love her more or she love him less... ??
how i wish to have a gal yup christian gal to fight with ... haha everytime fight with words... but harmless words ... hehe

well ... God love still the best ... yeah!!
I wont be able to forget you ... i will just keep you under my bed... as is a wonderful memories ... to see something you like in people hand is really a pain ... i dunno ... i guess time will wash away all the pain ... without God nth will happen even if time flew ...

selfish ...
r u ?
dunno ...
am i ?

yahoo

hey guys ... i finish 4 books le ... R you crazy , looking for love all wrong (smthing like dat haha), love need no reason and DVC... wao amazing that i can finish 4 books sia ...

been reading books when im doing duty... really thanks God that he give me the time to read... after reading back the chi novel , it bring back some of the memories...
memories that i treasure but is in the shelf now ...

memories ...
love ...
some distant will bring people closer to one another...

Books

hoo... i have finish half the book of DVC ... wao very exciting now .... well i will give more comments after i finish the book ... i think i will be able to finish it by tonight haha... oh well i read another chi novel too haha ... also half way through... great man ... the chi novel is "Love need more courage"

oh well it is quite a romantic funny novel... they started purely as friends... the gal keep on set boundaries but the guy keep on breaking it haha... it is cool man ... this thing is call AI MEI ... well and yang cheng ling song really say what is all about AI MEI ... so if you dun understand the meaning den go listen to the song and you will roughly get the idea... hehe....

hope the ending will be a great one ... but i doubt so ... haha dunnoe lar just read finish it lor ... wee...

reading books has always been my favourite ...
since young i like to listen to the older people talking ...
hehe i will just stare at them and listen...
be it good or bad ... haha everything i will absorb in it ...
oooh ya tonight my duty is from 6pm to 2am ... so do pray for me ... haha i will have a happy 8 hours reading my books... wee... you guys take care ... love you all muck muck ... haha =)

wee... village lifestyle

Yo ... did you guys miss me ... hehe... just came back from 3 days outfield ... haha been manning comms ... sian ... but i make use of the time to read books ... yeah... i took some great picture too ... haha ... ya still have to mend comms for another 5 days starting from now yo... hehe ... later 12 to morning 8 is my duty slot... i shall read DVC... wee... hopefully i can finish the book in 5 days ... haha ...

hey i guess i really like the simplicity of the village life ... the kids there really have a fun time playing with one another in a simple community center... haha... is simple yet fun ... as compare to our kids in singapore... sigh!! they only get to play with the computer and IT stuff... and plenty of homework... To the taiwan ppl ... sat and sun is their rest time sia ... very happening lor ... haha sat night Karaokay den sun whole afternoon also ... wao ...

oh ya ... im so blessed that i saw this church lor ... haha will upload the pic when i reach back singapore... weee.... a church in a mountain area ... cool sia ... wee... i tasted some nice food yesterday nite ... hehe went to heng chun town... i tried their tou hua with zhen zhu ... and hot plate beef noodle ... wowo the hotplate very delicious ... the noodle itself already very tasty ... and its only $3 sing ... sososo worth it .. hehe shall explore more food in the coming days ...

Eat to Live...
Live to Eat...
A person cant live without God's Word
wee... Thank you God for giving me Everything that i have ...
Thank You...

nice view in taiwan

wee... today get to go outfield again ... see lotsa oninon farm .. wao alot lor ... tml i shall bring my toy toy camera .. haha... went to the top of a mountain to do sentry... wow the view up there is really fanstastic ... nth can describe it .. . simple wonderful...

oh ya i make a new friend today... haha cos we 2 r together doing the sentry... he is a AI ... haha ... He is a christian ... and a BB too...wow we talk for the whole monring about OCS , God , christian stuff, BB and lotsa thing... He is a young christian .. well im young too haha... very enthu in God words.. yeah ... He is from Presbyterian Church ... hehe he is a guy that cannot stop doing smthing haha... keep on moving moving ... hehe ... like monkey... oops!!

hehe... went to 7-11 also ... haha brought coke for 25 buck ... keke inside very cool lor ... they got sell herbel egg ...wee...

today i sunburn abit lor .... but dun feel hot ... haha wierd sia... k lar ... hmm... pray for Jay k...

Love you ...

if i can turn back time

Time ... wont wait for you...
If i can turn back time ...
I will just remain the same ... as friend ...
Dat time everything is so nice
we are so happy ... now we r like stranger ...
why cant a broken couple be best friends?

i know i should not say you ... i dun even have the right to say you ... i hope i wont say you also... guess i still care for you ... why should i ... i dunnoe... friz like last time is so nice ... when i tease you ... even say you ... you also very happy ... but just a yr later ... everything change ... hai~ ... i change too... i guess im just not the type you like ... i guess you feel very disappoint to know me in deep bah ...

God please help me ... should i still be with friend with her?
thinking thinking ... i trying very hard ...

another food i tasted

Wee... the weather still very cooling duh! ... wad can you expect!! haha to change in a few days time ... bleahx... hey today i tried ... 2 new food ... one is hmm... taiwan carrot cake ... wow not bad sia ... only $1.5 very cheap right and very nice..
haha ... 2 food i tried will be a bread kind of thingy ... with meat and onion and with egg ... woo so nice ... delicious haha ... dun drop your saliva yo haha ... anyway it cost on another $1.5...

So sad that all my friends including me fall into the trap of relationship ... really hope God will open up thei eyes just as the same as He open up my eyes ... Hope that God will also give them peace and comfort them and also heal them from their broken heart... thank you God

Madly in love with You ...

weee

wow today the weather is super duper cold... im gooing to freeze to death soon... wee... today finish 2 books le ... so cool man ... finally finish the christian book... it really open up my eyes ... hehe...

aiya ... why are you angry with losing to her ... i still dun understand... if you can just look ahead of you ... you will be having more fun... will have peace and joy... dun you think by wanting to win her ... you cant move forward?? you guys r friend you noe ... i really hope that you will be okay ...

well... people tend to take time... human nature are wicked ... so do i ... we cant change our habbit w/o God Help... you need to open up to Him... only He can change people life... i really know how you feel... u just close urself totally... just try to listen to people with an open mind ... ya ...

Hope that you will be happy soon... hehe :P

....

i just like to say sorry ... argh... hmm... hope you understand ... i really dont have any motives .. why should i ?? hmm... even you like me now .... i also dun want to get into r/s ... cos i have to right in God eye first... i have to get rid of my bad habbit ... yup... make myself clean and prepare myself for my future wife.. just as she prepare for me..

hmm... well... seriously im very happy that God pull me out of this r/s thingy... kind of think back ... i really waste my time and your time just to be together ... we can be good friz ... and meet each other too... to praise God and worship Him...

wee... hmm... hope dat everybody will be fine .... really hope that you will be fine too... friend forever ... hehe...

God's love

God is so wonderful ... I just sad that so many people reject Him even when He came down to Earth to recue our sin... He so great and almighty that He really come down for us ... wow ... so wonderful and good right ... hehe ... im so grateful that I have found His love...

i have a great time in taiwan ... going to finish 2 christian books... really thanks God that He give me time to read His word and really grow in Him... From reading His words, i really grow up... just give Him all your life and He will take care of yours... who know better than you ... is none other than the creator , Lord Jesus Christ...

i read another book ... it say about why people give excuses to reject God ... it so sad to read that book... human being r evil by nature ... cos we r sinner... i really want to thank Him that he wash away my sin and i can be able to go to heaven...

now i just want to do things to please God ... be the person that He want me to be...
i really feel peace and love now ... cos God is the greater lover...

Love you God

taiwan

hehe hey everybody... taiwan weather is so so so nice ... so cooling ... hmm... today i have tian bu la ... quite nice... dunno what is the ingredient keke... guess is some meat and flour bah...

anyway ... i have adjusted to the lifestyle here ... everything is okay ... really peaceful here... Been reading alot of books lately ... im glad that i have found peace and happiness thru God words... He really care and love me...

Today do nth but just slp slp and read book hehe .. see ya gtg now byebye

taiwan day 1

Hey yeah!!! so far so good in taiwan... the weather is very nice ... everything okay ... miss you guys in singapore ... miss church ... hmm... miss somebody also ... but well fine ...

im at Wang Ka now haha ... internet cafe just opp my camp... actually inside the camp also have... been trying very hard to figure out of how to use the com cos the word that key in is min nang yu... haha ... so i go change the lang... and cos me 10 min... sob sob... wee...

today nothing much to do ... after touch down from airport ... took a 2hrs ride to the camp... ya the flight is fantastic .... got harry potter show lor ... but well i play game ... keke

hope to be back soon and see everything be better ... everything back to noraml again... everybody living happily ... hehe = ) all the best ... i still left 3 min.. k lar talk too much le ... byebye

My memories

i just read through our memories... it started out of boredem... it all becos of me... 10mths seem to be a long long journey...

on 24th of may -- first time you let me see our memories... that is the day that you wanna break with me... ya ... dat is not you want to break but becos of some reason ya... As i read through again today... i just find that what you say is only apply to that day that time 24th of May... i really dont want to doubt your love and feeling for me ... but can i ?? as you once quoted --

"My feelings for you won't change"
"I really do love you... pls dun doubt my love for you"

It really make me ponder ... you sure that your feeling wont change?? hmm... it is really true that when you like somebody... wadever the person say to you will be like honey ... you will just follow your feeling blindly and make empty promisses...
One thing for sure that wont change is God's Love...

new r/s will be better than the old r/s?? ...
new r/s your feeling will die down mah?? will you still make empty promiss??
if old r/s can be rekindle so can new r/s if not ...

what really will last is the friendship as it wont change becos you accept the person as he/she is...

i always tell myself... to be able to love ppl, first i have to love God, myself and my family... if i cant love them ... den i wont be able to love people around me...

Why do we have so many problem about r/s?? what is the solution to it?? well... after much hurt and serching... i found the answer... the answer is Bible...
Bible is the greatest love letter, love poem, love instruction that God has ever written... i really hope that not only you... but the youth can be able to see the light rather than indulge in r/s... i am telling myself too... hope that everybody will be fine...

feeling is just a period thing ... but if you keep on thinking about it the feeling will naturely grow as you bulid up the feeling ...

devil works 24/7 dyas--- so beware

Love is patient , Love is kind ...

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Thinking thinking of somebody ...
I dont think i can able to forget you ...
Thinking of you ...
another word is miss you ...
i really miss you...
miss your smile ...
miss your msg ...
miss your voice ...
i really miss you ...

Wonder how you feel now...
Wonder how you are doing ...
Wonder wonder wonder ...

CAn i still care for you??
Can i still be with you??
Can i still still still ...

If time ever stop
If time ever turn anti clockwise
I will want the time to stop at the happiest moment with you ...

evol ay OOO

God's Love

Lawrence - Victor ...

But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our LORD Jesus Christ
1 Corinthians 15:57

Belove -- how i wish you r my beloved ...
Hmm... somebody quote
"if you love her, just let her have what she wishes for..."
"Human sense of romantic love is selfish"

yeah i really blessed that i have a good bunch of church friends supporting me... really thank you...

God i love you...

Today went to watch a movie with my army friend after sending my kit bag in OCS... Have a wonderful time laughing at it... the show is quite touching too... yeah so do catch it if you r feeling down ... have a laugh at it bah =)

just a Thought

STop being a parent!!... i should just stop nagging ... i should not lecture ppl ... but why am i doing this to ppl ?? becos i care for dat person... even if i got scolded ... even if you hate me ... now i really understand why parent scold and get hurt in the end ... is so hard... is so hard...

Hmm... im sorry dat i keep on saying you... i guess my kindness put in the wrong time and wrong place ...

i will be your habour ...
A place for you to relax...
a place to cry...
a place to spill out your unhappiness...
i will be your habour...

My Feeling

My feeling now is just like this song ... i wonder guang liang did he experince as me ... i guess so bah ... if not how can he be able to wrote this piece and it lyric...

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Thanks God

Thank God that i have a wonderful time at ECP yesterday ... i never get recall back to the camp... Trust in God in wadever thing you do ... He will take care of everything... i guess i just have to let everything go ... ya. Hmm.... Do what God want me to do ....

when i see you ... my heart go crazy... i keep on telling myself dont let devil influence me ... i have to be calm... i have to do the right thing... make the right decision... argh.... i feel so crazy now ... if i do something, it may turn out to be bad ... so i think i just dunt do anything ... i dunno...

plssss no E - MOB

oh ya ... plsZZzzz no Emob for me ... hey i dunno why lar ... i guess this blog is my letting out place ... but i really mean wad i mean at that time ... im serious lor ... k lar .. i know i cant really aspect more from you le ... ya im evil lor ... sigh!!... age gap really so critical meh ... yawn i think so bah to some of them ... hmm... i really looking forward to see you ... im really looking forward for tml ECP outing ... hope we will have a nice day ... ya .. fellowship together ... hmm.. i really hope somebody will happen to see my blog ... hope she will know the truth me ... im not dat type of guy who will want to detroy my love one ... and i really hope the best for her ... im may seem to be flirt but im not ...

guess if im your shoes i will also doubt me ... pls give me a chance to prove myself to you ...
= )

sigh!!

seem that i really cant be with you ... anyway you seem very distant to me le ... you seem to aviod me ... you seem to rnu away from me ... i dun even think you r my friz le ... maybe just a passaby... hi bye that kind of friends... whatever i go you will get scolded... argh!! why!! ... and really you seem to be happier without me ... i really dunno why your parent dont like me ... even sms also cannot ... am i a evil guy ?? am i dat bad?? did i lead you to evilness ?? hmm... sigh!! wadever i did to you only you and God know ... i think nobody knows ... nvm lar ... yawn ... im just contend to see you happy ...

if you happen and dare to see this posting ... im really glad about it ... it seem that we can only be underground friz... ahah ... first time sia gt underground friz... =...(

spooky

some lady/ gal call me this afternoon ... say did i lost any of my hp... im like i toking to you with my hp now right ... haha ... then she say ... she found a hp and it say the owner is me hp... dat very weird lor ... anyway she is from NUS...

hmm.. you bad bad ... never see my blog ... go see other first den mine ... but aiya nvm ... i cant do anything also ... you happy can le ... buai buai lar ...

just hope you are happy

i have nth to wish for le ... i know nth can bring you back to me unless God's power ... i dun want you to be sad too ... now i just hope that you will lead an happy life ... = ) do well for your study ... yeah!!! ... it just so simple now ... i guess i can also concentrate on my dream ... to be a bussiness man and to retire at age 45 ... i guess if we r meant to be together we will eventually be together = ) ...

ya i really grow up le ... oh ya ... jogging is fun ... and gym too ... it feel so good after the session... is time to develop my knowledge and strength... ya i have to be intependent!!! To make people happy is always part of my philosophy...

i will still pray for you ... wisdom and cash for shopping right ... hehe ... cash go earn yourself lar ... haha = P dun be to lazy yo...

bleeding

my heart just keep bleeding when i recieve your msg ... it seem so fake .... it really the end of our journey... it seem like all you have say is fake fake fake... all your promiss and your words are fake... in a few days only ... im from bf to cf to f.... what i have done to deserve this ... i feel really cheated... still say will think till b4 my trip... is all rubbish ... what have you treat me as... a piece of shit ... i felt that im just a subsitute of somebody ... i still cant understand why i deserve this ... never get to sit with you in church ... even your Ex did it .... argh.... feel like dieing ... everything seem to be FAKE..

im so so sad.... and i so stupid to cry for you ... ARGH!!! always give me false hope ... why do you like me in the first place ... nv even do somthing for me .... actually im looking forward to our one yr ani ... but but ... why ... i prepare so many for you ... i even prepare to stay in singapore to study ... i even wanna study econ so to help you ... dont you feel anything ?? do i look like a fool to you ?? hey ans me!! USE ME AND THROW AWAY ME!! hey im not a toy okay .... do you know im thinking of buying you mp3 player ... sigh i guess you dunno... did you know i care for you so much that i sacrify alot of my precious thing ??

i guess you dont know!!! never even apreciate what i have done for you ... Grrr... ARgh!!! the worst thing is being with you make me look like a cheater to alot of my friz ... say i bluff xiao mei mei ... guess you dunno i take alot of stress also ... even my parent say we wont be together but i still tell them we will... im really love you that i just willing to die for you .... but i guess it all not worth it ... all so stupid... i should not even have started .... grr... sob sob sob how i wish im at other country now ...

the most tupid thing is i still cant forget you ... i still think of you ... when i close my eyes i will see you ... even when i slp i see you in my dream... ARGH!!!!..... i still worried abt you ...

what should i do ?? i tried alot of thing just not to think of you ... but but i guess is hard becos i really true from my heart i love you ... is not just feeling but also the commitment ....
Suess you wont feel that way ... cos im just like a stopgap and a subsitute...
sigh!!

oh w r u ??

hey where are you ?? hmm... never see you and hear you ...
hmm... feeling from heart is not a good thing ... i just read it from a book... it say feeling from heart will always decieve you ... listen to your holy spirit... sometime it mean gut feeling ...

Xian life without you is meaningless... so so so sian... i dun mind qurrel with you lor ... sigh!!! i guess without me you will have a better life bah... when i close my eyes ... i saw you ...

i stare at my hp ... waiting for response ... but nth happen... i wannted to activate the hp... but i scare that you will be sad and stress... how r you ?? i have alot of things to tell you...

somebody quoted --- love can be maintain and rekindle ... i do not want to end this r/s ... i really hope that you still treasure these words...

missing somebody

My hp very quite today and yesterday night... it seem like dead... everytime i will look at my hp and wait wait wait ... something is missing... i dunnoe how you feel ... maybe you feel the same... i dare not msg you ... i scare dat you will get hurt becos of me ... i really miss you... i guess when is time for you to come back you will be back...

i read a book - when godly people do ungodly thing...
quite sad that im guilty of it too ... need to be on guard against the devil all time... now is the age of seductiion ... be it sexual, money, power and others...
sexual is the favourite of all sin that devil like... cos it will destroy the temple of God which is your body...

passion without knowledge is useless
knowledge without passion is useless too
must have passion and knowledge for God...

all the best for you gal...
hope you will enjoy your short holiday...
evol ay

Day 7 - last day

Today is Lord day ... is also my day 7 ... i guess it will be the last day too...

Go spread the gospel and have a desire for the unsave soul ...
i want to thanks God that He has give me an extra 200 bucks ... dat i thought i wont be able to get it due to some reason ...
Trust in the Lord ... He will provide things for you ...

i guess i will leave my r/s thingy to God ...
i hope you will do the same thing also ...
i really dunno why your parent and sis dont like me ... really dunno ...
well... i hope one day they will see the real me ...
i wish you all the best in your study and life ...
ya my promiss to you will still stand ...
my feeling for you will still be there ...

i leant alot of things during the whole journey --- esp during these 7 days ... it really make me to ponder about r/s ... about the true meaning of love ...

Love is not just about the feeling ...
Love is all about commitment ...
without commitment there is no love ... im not saying about r/s only ... even close friend love need commitment ...
you need to commit to maintian r/s be it close friend/ BGR / Family ...

I also found out that human being like being praise and aprreciate...
it take 2 hands to clap...
Well i guess evey fall will have a lesson learn ...

i really still hope that you will fly back one day ...
i guess you r my truely first love ... (God first) hehe
= )

Here is my new toy... just brought it today ... for just 99 yo... hope it will last long cos i have bad experince with creative...

Day 6

Everything seem to be ...
i just have to accept it ...
just be a mr nice guy ...
just be myself ...

yeah jogging is fun ...
take away all my stress ...
take away all my troubles ...
take away all my worry ...
take away all my sadness ...
take away my FATS too ...
yeah jogging is fun ...

what done cannot be undone...
i just have to let her fly...
let her fly to her paradise...
when you are tired...
you can always fly back...
i will be waiting for you...
i guess that is my character...
im a perfectionist in a way...

God will make a way
when there seem no way
hope that He will guide me through ...

all the best for you ...
fly as high as you wish ...
happy forever...

day 6

cF vs bF

hmm... i guess to you cF mean no commitment bah ... and you dun want to have physical part ... but you still treat me like bF ... just that without the physical touch and commitment ... well is all about social term ...

even if we r still cF i still treat you as my gF ... i can live without the phy touch ... really... i think that is really what God want ... ya to me it is just a term ... well we can be gf/bf without phy touch de... really ... even without holding hand ... what is really matter is the heart for each other... and as in commitment ... well i guess i know you too well that now is a really burden to you ... take it slowly bah ...

i suggest why not we call ourself cbf/cgf gaga c = close/church ya ...
unless you got another guy ... i mean the social term bf ... den i will wait for you ...
well i guess cbf/cgf mean we r still attach in another way bah ... to me is yup...

i really hope that this will work well = )

DAy5

this morning i went to extend my passport ... im going to taiwan soon le ... i dunnoe is good or bad... i guess i have to leave singapore for a while ... i guess most likely i need to heal my soul and heart... hey accept the fact and dun be too sad ... what gone is already gone... wake up wake up ...

My girl and I ... where is my girl ?? where are you ?? even the net want to fool me ... im feel like im a fool... lucky i never put in much hope about it ... well ... things started badly ... and ya i guess she just want to make me happy abit ... so she did something for me... im so happy ... if not i dunno how am i going to spend my evening ...

things seem to be the same ... nothing will ever change her mind... she just dont want to be responsible for anything ... she maybe selfish ... but i guess nobody is at fault ... anyway once i know her and accept her ... i guess i just have to wait ... patiencely wait for her ... for her heart to go back to me one day or her heart to another person ...

dont take to long to say i love you too the one you love
cos time has a habbit of slipping away
im on a clear blue sky when lighting strike on the sunny day
just take me in from keep me from the rain
and the words dat seem so hard to say
come out when you gone away
stay a little while hear me say ...

dat i want you here tonight
and i need you by side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment with you...

turn away dat say goodbye with each and every words that passaby like a distance memory
and time keep slipping away
and time will turn a grey
and time will be the one who hold you down
and the words dat seem so hard to say
come out when you gone away
stay a little while hear me say ...

dat i want you here tonight
and i need you by side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment
dat i want you here tonight
and i need you by side
for just one more moment
for just one more moment with you...

sometime time will treat you bad
before even you know what's wrong
and in the end it hit you hard
please tell me you be strong

sometime time will treat you bad
before even you know what's wrong
and in the end it hit you hard
please tell me you be strong

ya to be strong...

ooh..Argh!!

Wee this evening i done something really crazy ... ya crazy ... well guess what izzit haha ... sorry not SEX!!! is something better and adrealine than it ... haahaa k lar ... i went for a jog.. Running hor .. hehe so cool man!!! ... workout my body brain and soul ... it is so relieve and relax ... kind of fell in love with it...

oh yeah!!.. being intro to a band(Ronin) by miss brownieHAmHam ... oh well my first impression was oh ... ust be a rocker with lotsa jamming song... What an Atrocious ablum cover.. $ $ cover a gal i guess ... ya ya the P parts... STart with N end with E... hmm... to my surprise the song not dat bad ... ya quite nice ... no foul language and evil tune ... nice song - one more moment & memories... well i hope one more moment is the song dat you you ya is you dat wanna send me some msg... ya if it is true den im so happy ... = ) ... or am i thinking too much... i guess just let the nature take it course bah...

Day4- miss more you as the day go by ...
Certain thing is missing in my life...
I feel so lost... i hope we will have one more moment...
moment that will never end!!!

Day 3

Am i the reason for you to smile ??

i hope so too... very happy to see you smile again... really hope that everything go well... miss you very much... so close yet so far apart...

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2 day

i guess dat is really the end ... END END ... the End

why do couple only goes through good time but not bad time ... now i know why marriage is so so important ... becos that is a convenant to keep the couple together ... provided you uphold it... too bad a so call relationship treated so likely ... well... marriage nowaday also treated likely ... what can i say ...

yeah i guess only closed friend will be a good couple ... later on when during marriage... kiss dating goodbye ...

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hope that this entry will be a new start ... waiting for an answer ... i believe if we past this tough time we will be better ... i really wish that you wont be so stressful ... your dad will be fine too ... stress will make a person grow stronger ... got ppl support me sia ... and that guy ya is a guy support me sia ... hmm... hmm...

miss you

wo si nian le ....

hmm... appear to be strong ... loneliness started to creep in when the night came ... cant slp cant do anything... my heart become numb... no feeling at all... a few days ago everything seem to be fine ... i told my bf that ya we r still going strong ... and wad happen now... i guess God want me to learn somthing ... yeah Thanks God... i hope that not the end of us ... i hope is the begining ... you are the one that i really put my heart in ... it break my heart when i heard that im not in your pic anymore ... well... that life... everything will come to an end ... without end there wont be a start ... i really treasure the time that im with you ... believe me i will be back again in a different way ... i gonna prove that my love to you is real ... can be tested ... i wont give up so easily ... unless you give up on me ... i think close friz not a bad thing too ... you know why ?? dont tell you ... haha ... im listening to stella feng shou di 7 tian ... now i can really feel the lyrics le ... will send to you this coming sunday ... hope to see you soon ... be strong ... all the best ...

feng shou day 1

airport

hey ... im at changi airport now haha ... haha blogging in the airport ... hehe cool right ... now the time is around 1am + haha... i guess you r slping now right ... sweet sweet dream ... argh!!! miss you ... = 0 ) ... u take care hor ... now waiting for departure ... gaga ... you jia you bah ... and by the time you see this ... should be morning le ... or maybe night .... haha enjoy your week ... wee... bye

Fresh Start

Dear dear ... hope you like the pic ... gaga ... maybe by the time you see my blog im already in thailand le... keke ... love you very much .... cant wait to see you again ... dear you take care k ...

yeah ... i learn alot of thing this past few week... esp in church ... i really aprreciate your love to me ... love you ... i really want to be by your side ... you are my source of life ... = ) ...

i hope that both of us have a fresh start ... i happy year ahead... may our relationship go on forever... i love you... happy vday ... hope that you like the roses... hehe ...

servant heart ...
evolyaamanda

doggy ... hiyee nice to see you ... am i pretty keke

my big head here ... haha big big big big wee....

I love You

Forget the day that started our destiny...
Maybe is a kind of feeling towards you...
The next moment i found that i am deeply in love with you...
It just so simple...
Love you till day and night 24/7...
What is right and wrong seem to be...
Love you till day and night 24/7...
That crazy guy is none other than me...

I love you...
I cant help loving you baby...
Tell me you love me too...
I love you forever...
I do not want to lose you baby...

I know that is impossible...
But if you can be with me...
I can do anything for you...
Even the world keep on changing...
My feeling towards you will never change...

I love you...
Im always there for you...
Always there loving you...
I love you...
Yes i do...

I will not be giving up...
The chance to love you...
If you have any troubles...
Come to me...
Listen to my heart....
I love you...
Yes i do...